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Title: What explains fuck-up when you're feeling fuck-up?

Last updated on Tuesday, October 14, at 10:22 PM

Pardon me with my rants.
Ignore me if you want.

I couldn't be bothered with some nonsense.
I'm trying not to hate my uncle.
I totally hate those words coming out from his mouth.
And, I need to bear with it.
Even if it's obvious that I'm right & he's in the wrong.
I still need to pretend I'm in the wrong.
Tell me, What is this shit?
I hate sucking up eh.
So, I talked back.
Then he began to bombard me.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Seriously, even though my grandparents are still alive.
I don't feel them existing at all.
Maybe one of my paternal side, my grandfather.
He's the only one who dotes on me & my brother.
Sigh, but still.......
I only contact them like once a month? or twice?
pathetic shit.
Sometimes, I'm closer to friend's granny rather than my own ones.
which is fucked up.
I totally don't give a fuck now,
don't wanna retaliate because of "RESPECT"
andddd I so wanna screw that ass who created this word.

I wanna enjoy my own damn life.
Whatever you wanna say, I will just pretend I'm deaf.
I must really learn "how to suck-up" from my brother.
Or maybe cause he's the grandson?
I hate those tradition mindset la.
fuck those upside down.
fuckingshit.
arghhh.

I'm feeling sooooo angsty now

arghhh...

Love, Sarah